You’re not alone there bud, def no shame in it. Remember few months back having to say goodbye to my SBT and like you cried like a baby. Kids were shocked I was crying and even my wife commented that she’d never seen me cry and we’ve been together nearly 20 years. Even my mum told my wife that she can’t remember me ever crying other than when I was a baby. Close friends and family have passed and nothing, saying goodbye to my Harry and I couldn’t stop, took a good few hours to pull myself together. It’s the only real special connection, man and his dog.