Allan McGregor girlfriend's baby tragedy

HEARTBROKEN Leah Shevlin sobbed last night as she described how she held her tiny stillborn son in her arms, and told the tragic little boy: "I love you so much."

Shattered Leah - engaged to Rangers ace Allan McGregor - had been in labour for six hours when doctors broke the devastating news to her that her baby had lost his fight for life.
Numb with shock, the exhausted model then had to deliver tragic 6lb 2oz tot Frazer with sister Joyce Thomson by her side.
Last night anguished Leah, speaking for the first time about her heartache, said: "He was perfect, and so beautiful. I didn't have any pain relief because I knew I'd only have him for a short time and I didn't want to miss a second. I cuddled and talked to him - I don't remember much of what I said, except that I loved him so much and I was sorry."
Leah, 28, told how she had discovered she was expecting her first child in 2004 during her six-year romance with ex-lover Fraser Black, 28 - now serving seven years behind bars for attempted murder.
But the couple split up when she was five-a-half-months pregnant, and she prepared for life as single mum.
Leah, who moved back to her parents' home in East Kilbride, was struck down with liver problems as the tot's birth grew nearer.
But despite her health worries, the excited mum-to-be was still thrilled to be expecting her first child.

Nursery


She said: "I had regular blood tests and scans to monitor my progress. But baby Frazer gave me such joy because he was such an active wee soul.
"He woke up at the same times and wriggled with the same routine every day.

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"I had the imprint of his * sticking out of my tummy, and a foot would suddenly appear with an almighty kick.

"I loved him so much that I was scared to give birth because he'd no longer be part of me."
As she waited for her baby son's birth, Leah and her parents prepared the perfect nursery for him.
She said: "My parents were fantastic. Between us we'd decorated his own wee room.
"I had the pram, the cot, changing mat, bottles, baby clothes - everything was ready for my little Frazer's arrival and we were all looking forward to it so much."
But Leah was 15 days overdue when she felt her unborn baby's movements slow down - and knew straight away there was a problem.
She said: "My instinct warned me that something was wrong.
"I phoned the hospital and told them I was on my way."
Despite her desperate dash to the hospital, little Frazer died 20 minutes before he was born in the early hours of January 15, 2005.
The tot's tiny body was gently placed in a cot at the end of exhausted Leah's bed in a private room at Wishaw General's maternity unit in Lanarkshire.
Wiping away tears she said: "He had a full head of jet black hair and sallow skin - just like me when I was born.
"I was told if he'd arrived just one day earlier, he'd have survived.





"I'll always regret that I was too weak to bath him.
"My sister Joyce bathed and dressed him, then laid him in his little cot.
"A nurse came to take me to where he'd be going when it was time to leave me. But I didn't want to follow her and leave Frazer all alone in his cot.
"She looked at me as if to say, 'He's dead, you idiot'."
Eventually, distraught Leah was forced to say a final farewell to her beloved son.
She said: "I was allowed to spend a day with Frazer before they took him away.
"Then a nurse wheeled him out in his cot, with a sheet covering his wee face. I wanted to see his face for the last time, but she covered him in case any of the mums saw him and got upset."
After her son was taken away, frail Leah collapsed with emotion.
She said: "I fell to the floor with what I can only describe as a silent scream - where every fibre of your being is screaming out, yet no one hears."
Heartbroken Leah's family arrived to take her home from hospital.
And as she left, she noticed another woman leaving - proudly carrying her newborn child.
She admitted: "I couldn't take my eyes off her. I had nothing. Nothing." Still in shock, she registered the tot's birth and death and arranged her little boy's funeral. Eric Clapton's Tears In Heaven and Over The Rainbow by Eva Cassidy were played in church, before Frazer was cremated.
Leah said: "It was really hard. I chose an enclosed Moses basket rather than a white coffin."

Tribute


For the next two years, tormented Leah battled with her grief for her lost child.
She threw herself into punishing gym sessions in a bid to blot out the pain and refused to let anyone get close to her.
She said: "I shut myself off and built a big barrier around me. I'd push myself to the point of exhaustion, yet I couldn't sleep. I lived from day to day. There was nothing to look forward to and everything to mourn.
"I wasn't interested in boyfriends. I wouldn't let anyone get close to me. I was hurting so badly."
But after pushing the idea of romance from her mind, she fell for Ibrox keeper McGregor after they met at the Bentley dealership where she worked.
The 28-year-old Rangers star often accompanies her to the memorial shrine she has created for Frazer - and always buys her a dozen pink roses on the anniversary of the little boy's death.
Leah said: "I love pink roses because I've made them Frazer's flowers. Red roses are for love, white roses are for friendship, so pink roses - tied with a blue ribbon - are my gift to my son." The couple, who share a plush £1million penthouse in Glagsow's west end, have no plans to start their own family just yet.
Leah said: "I know that Allan's the one and perhaps one day we'll have children of our own. But right now, I'm far too scared.
"I know I'd worry for the entire nine months and I couldn't bear to lose another child.
"But I've got years ahead, so maybe that will change with time.
"Right now we're happy. We both lead busy lives and we're in love. He's my everything."
And paying another tribute to the little boy she lost, Leah whispered: "He may not be here with me, but I'll always be his mummy."



Cant stand the two of them but still feel some empathy towards them.

 

* sake! so sad this. wouldnt wish that on my worst enemy! rip little frazer

 

Sad, sad news.

Who cares who he plays for, my heart goes out to them both.

* bless the wee soul

 

VERY SAD

 

theres no need to say that mate! cmon eh.

 

* sake that's horrible, RIP wee man.

 

Sad news wouldn't wish it on anybody .

 

You are bang out of order .

 

The levels people will sink to for a bit of media attention really does sicken me.

Rip baby Fraser. X

 

Such a shame.

RIP.

 

extremely sad. R.I.P.

 

RIP wee guy

 

This is when football get's put to one side.

R.I.P.

 

was it mcgregors wean?or her ex's?

the title says mcgregor baby tragedy but the article says the wean was with her ex maybe am reading it wrong.anyway sad for the woman,and the da as it would be for anyone to lose a kid

 

my genuine thoughts are with them, this is a shame for both of them. My heart goes out to anyone who goes through heartache like this,

 

R.I.P

 

well done * biggot. mcgregor aint goram fs. its actually sad people would feel so much hatred against some one for playing for the team they support as a boy. condolences to the man and his misses

 

R.I.P

 

* *! rip

 

has anyone actually read this?it was 2 years before she met mcgregor

a know its sad but think people should read the article